American Idol judge Kara DioGuardi has revealed that stripping down to her bikini on last years final, probably saved her job on this year’s season.

“I kept saying no,” the songwriter told US Magazine. “I mean, what crazy nut is gonna go out there in a bikini at almost 40 years of age against a girl who is 20 and probably cosmetically enhanced?”

Kara added that the event was “a defining moment” that helped her fit in amongst her fellow judges.

“Like, ‘She’s serious and industry, but also as kooky as everyone else on this panel,’” DioGuardi added. “I looked a little pasty. But hey, at least I didn’t wet myself!”

You can watch the moment where Kara sang with ‘Bikini Girl’ Katrina Darrell below.