Nadia Almada has given her first TV interview since she left the Ultimate Big Brother house and shed some light on her subsequent breakdown and suicide bid.
The 33 year old shot to fame as the winner of Big Brother Five and claims that on her return to the final series of the show, she was bullied and victimised by American rap star Coolio. She also insists that footage of her was badly edited by Channel 4 and Endemol and key interactions and breakdowns were not shown, so that she would look worse to the voting public.
Speaking on This Morning, with Phillip Schofield and Holly Willoughby, Nadia blasted the TV show saying:
“You cannot trust Endemol/Big Brother anymore. They’ve lost the focus of a social experiment that they had initally, now it’s more of an entertainment platform.”
“I was assured that it was going to be a celebration, going to be a lot of fun. It was the end of an era, the end of a show and they wanted the best of the best and obviously they wanted me to be in there. But there were a lot of things that happened, I had my meltdown and I had a panic attack in there. That wasn’t shown. I feel a disappointment at the lack of loyalty I’ve been given by Channel 4 and Endemol.”
On why she attempted to commit suicide, Nadia admitted that emerging from the house to a booing crowd and later being abused in the street, led her to doubt herself and spiral into a deep depression. She said:
“I just couldn’t take it anymore. I was really really ashamed of myself. I thought I had disappointed my whole family and friends and also my fans and I felt that I’d did something wrong. I had a guilty conscience, I think there’s a bit of Catholic punishment thrown in there as well. I’m my worst critic.”
“Why did people detest me so badly? You automatically think that it’s because of something you have done wrong, it can’t be because of something you have done good.”
Nadia went on to defend her comments to BB11 winner Josie Gibson about her boyfriend John James (read more here) and said that Ulrika Johnson over-reacted to their row over a broken plate.
Not much remorse there then!