Chantelle Houghton says she’ll never get back with Alex Reid as she thinks he still loves Katie Price!
Speaking to the Mirror, Chantelle said, “I know my life is a bit crazy…
“I’ve got a baby with Alex, and I’m divorced from Preston but that’s what happened, that’s what I’ve done.
“I don’t regret getting married, and I could never regret being with Alex because I’ve got Dolly.”
But she revealed that she hadn’t forseen raising Dolly alone. She said, “I never thought I’d be a single mum…
“I always dreamed I would get married and have a baby and a family and live happily ever after. But life doesn’t always work out how you want it to.
“This is my life, this is my reality, so this is what I am going to get on with.”
She added, “I do still love Alex now. I was totally in love with him, 100 per cent.
“But at the time, he would tell me he loved me and of course I believed him.”
As to her suspicion that Alex is still love with Katie, Chantelle said, “I would say he definitely still loves her even now.”
She continued, “It is me and Dolly now. Ido not know what I would do without her right now.
“My job is making sure that she is happy.
“I know right now that this is a really, really hard testing time of my life. Climbing into an empty bed every night is a horrible reminder.
“Alex should be there but it’s just me and Dolly in the room. It’s lonely. And it does make me sad when I see happy families together in the park.
“I think, ‘I should have that.’ Then a lightbulb goes or the brake light goes on the car, and I have to do it all myself. But I’ve had no choice…
“I am not OK right now, but I know that I will be. Every day, I feel like a tiny bit of me seeps back. Really slowly, it is coming back.”
Chantelle went on to reveal that part of the problem between herself and Alex is how other people influence his life.
She said, “Alex brings people into his life, random people.
“He goes through phases of being super-close with them. It becomes Alex and this person, then me.
Chantelle then revealed that she knew it was finally over with Alex after she read a telling message on his phone when baby Dolly was just weeks old.
She said, “I don’t normally go through people’s phones. But I am glad I did because of what I found.”
Alex had sent a text to a male friend, asking if it was time to “bon voyage” Chantelle.
She added, “There it was in black and white. I was like ‘I have just had your baby – I am not even healed from it, and you are talking about me like that.’
“If that guy had said ‘yeah, yeah, get rid of her’ he would have done. And that is what they were plotting the whole time.
“I cleared out my flat last week and I found one he had done on Kate as well. But I believe he had stronger feelings for her than me.”
However, Chantelle concluded by saying that no matter what, she’ll never stop Alex seeing Dolly.
She said, “He IS her dad and always will be. I will not stand in the way of them getting to know each other.
“But it is hard when he comes round and I see him playing with her because we were meant to be a family.”