Britain’s Got Talent judge Amanda Holden says writing her autobiography helped her “exorcise” the grief of losing two babies

by Lynn Rowlands

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As fans of Britain’s Got Talent judge Amanda Holden will know, the star has had to endure the heartache of losing two babies, one of whom she miscarried four months into her pregnancy, and later, in 2011, Amanda’s baby son died two months ahead of his due date…

So of course, Amanda and her husband Chris Hughes were devastated on both occasions, and though they take great comfort and joy from their daughters Lexi and Hollie, losing their other two children has of course been difficult to get over.

However, while speaking to the Express, brave Amanda has revealed that she managed to “exorcise a lot of stuff” while writing her autobiography, which is entitled, Amanda Holden – No Holding Back – My Story.

Of how writing the book became cathartic, Amanda explained, “I wanted to include the awful stuff I went through, so I put it all in.

“I think it can help people if I talk about it. There are 17 stillbirths every day, and I think it’ll be good for people to hear my story if they’ve gone through that.

Amanda Holden – No Holding Back – My Story“Going over it all, you exorcise a lot of stuff. I definitely did.

“I’ve been able to put a lot of it to bed now.”

However, Amanda added, “Chris found it emotional to read my account of everything…

“Reliving those things is the hardest thing I’ve ever done. It was traumatic, but it also helped me an awful lot to move on.”

Of her book, which is due to go on sale next month, the paper adds, “It will also include details of her first marriage to comedian Les Dennis. The pair divorced after eight years in 2003 amid claims Amanda had cheated with actor Neil Morrissey.”

And of her desire to “set the record straight” over a number of issues, Amanda said, “There was a lot of stuff that happened that I’ve never been able to write or say…

“And now I’ve been able to give my side.”

She added, “I’m nervous about it coming out. It’s full of information that’ll make a few headlines.

“Being in the glare again is terrifying [but] I think it’s a good read and I hope nobody’s disappointed.”

Amanda’s book is to be released on October 24th, but for now, here’s a reminder of her on BGT…

Lynn is an editor and writer here at Unreality TV and is a trained psychotherapist and the author of two books. She's addicted to soaps, period drama and reality TV shows such as X Factor, Big Brother, BGT and I'm A Celeb.

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  1. RICHARD HATHAWAY on September 14, 2013 at 9:14 am


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